It’s Day 8 of Camp NaNoWriMo, and I feel as if I am losing my will to write.
I haven’t felt writer’s block in years. To tell you the truth, I tried not to believe writer’s block existed. I figured, “If I write something every day, then I can’t possibly get writer’s block.” I thought it was something I could fight against easily, like a head cold.
Digging deeper, writer’s block feels like apathy.
I started Camp NaNoWriMo writing a project I was excited about a month ago – except this time, I’m not excited about it. I’m not connected to the story. I didn’t do enough research. I didn’t do enough world building. And it made me feel like a writer not worth my salt.
To combat this, I edited my project with the flexibility to work on the project I actually wanted to embrace – my NaNoWriMo 2014 novel. I have two scenes left to write, and it’s a struggle. Did I do enough world building? Are my characters’ relationships believable? Is anything I write believable?
So why am I feeling this way?
Writer’s block comes from a place of doubt. Most of my doubt is rooted in my anxiety, so I know it starts there. Anxiety branches out into doubt which branches out into writer’s block. I feel I should be in a place right now where I’m not. I feel my writing should already be in a place where it’s not. I feel as if I’m falling behind.
Which is why I’m writing this to help not only myself, but every writer reading this. Imagine every doubt about your writing is said by someone that annoys you. Give your writer’s block a face. And tell those doubts straight to its face that they will not win.
And that’s exactly what I’ll do. I will not let these feelings of apathy consume me. I will tell writer’s block that it has no power over me.
I will not wait for inspiration to find me. I am my own muse.
And this is a promise to you, reader, that you will see a post this month about my novel, completed.